for a while !

i need to know how the story will end !!

it wont be the worst end,

but i think it wont be good !

that`s why i ll keep enjoying life,,for a while !

New look !

I want to have that look !!

Gelling my hair,

wearing black tight "t"-shirt !!

give me mic !


i will keep singing the whole night !

dancing,,may be !

why not ?!

I NEED THAT !!!

I will tell you a secret,

I wake up everyday, i always have the thought that i am not doing the right thing and that it`s (*&()&)(*& <
Actually, i am very moody !


May be because i dont know what i really need or want !! or may be because i already dont need anything

or may be because it`s lack of faith !

But what i really know

is that i am not who i am !!



MOOOOOOOOOOODY !!! :s

i have to gorget everything
not to put in my consideration anything
have to think of myself
what makes me happy
and what makes me good

smile from deep inside


forget abt others

and what would make them sad,and unsatisfied


i really need to feel satisfied

you know what
oneday,i will choose something
i am sure it wont be the perfect fo rmebut at least i would struggle for something

i will say "I NEEEEEEEEEEED THAT !!! "

One day to live

few seconds

forgetting past

Future

and present !

One day to live !

Options please !

writing and deleting,,

well,

it seems that it`s difficult to stay,however it is more complicated to return !

Unstable yet !


-Puzzle-

26.11.2010

Snowing day,,

it`s the 1st time to see snow in my entire life..


-للذكري-

1st feast apart !

wake up !!! ""it`s the feast""
directly walking towards the laptop,
turning on quran channel,
"the volume", she thought

"High", she kept on thinking

walking to kitchen, having her breakfast prepared, it is a big one, getting her omlette prepared, her mozarella cheese, hot toaste..

returned back to the room, "who would be the one to call me ?!" ,she hold her mobile"yes !!" with a sleepy smile

then she recieved the 1st feast greeting, apart !!!

That Kind !

Can you swear that you always tell the truth ?!

That all what you say is what you mean, and that you always mean what you say !!

How hard it is to be someone of that kind, treating all people as if they are all of that kind.

and finally you discover that no one is of that kind !!

the truth

So, Please keep hidding it for a while -forever- !!

One way !

Althought it is one way decision !!


Althought it isnt totally right situation,



we just keep on going that way !

Happy eid 15/11/2010

يا ليلة العيد انستينا

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"و الليلة عيد..ع الدنيا سعيد""

سمعتها وانا هنا

بعيد

للذكري

15.11.2010

i cant express the feeling of being apart, celebrating the feast alone.

But at least, i had that feeling that no one-except people here- had..

Only few people who are already apart too, experince that feeling of being here celebrating alone

the best part of the day is watching muslims in the streets just saying "salamo 3leko" w "kol sana wento tyben" althought they are already from different arabic countries, they could be even turkish but they still know those two sentences, which makes the world smaller. and "lelet el 3eed" much better :)

Happy eid to all people apart :)

Everywhere Struggle

This part of my life is called " everywhere Struggle" !

So Please Wake me up When it`s over !!

SHUT UP !

I wont speak my mind anymore,

i wont even open my mouth to talk

PLEASE, SHUT UP !

Sunflower,,

-"Excuse me, Can you tell me why you love sun that much ?!"

-"You even put sun before your own name?"

----"Simply, it`s why i am alive !!"

Said by (2)

سأذكر بارقة من حنين
أضاءت بقلبي فراغ السنين

وأذكر موجة حب دفين
تداعب أحلامنا كل حين

وتطفو على صفحات العيون
سأذكر ماعشت هل تذكرين.

__فاروق شوشة

"مما قرأت" series

مازال يســـــاورني يقيـن ..!أن هـــــناك شـــــئ ينتــــظرني بعد الصــ ـــبر ؛لـِ يبـــهرني فينســيني مرارة الأمـس" وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ "فـَ هذا وعدٌ من ربــّي

هجرتك طوعا لانى رأيت قلب يهوى فراقي , نعم اشتاق, ولكني وضعت كرامتي فوق اشتياقي, وارغب وصلك دوما ولكن,طريق الذل لا تهواها ساقي

-مما قرأت-

Said by

متى أَحَبَّت المرأة كان الحب عندها ديناً وكان حبيبها موضع التقديس والعبادة - طاغور

No Tears

Because someone somewhere's going home tonight

Try to understand the sacrifice

So save your tears for those left behind

-James Blunt-

Grow up !

Have you been asked before to grow up ?

How to grow up ?

what is the attitude that proves that you are grown up ??

If you have a clue, inform me !

I refuse to grow up, until you tell me "WHAT`S GROWING UP" ?

That Color

it is that color,

that tells you that the weather is windy

when you find the streets full of it

You dont know whether it is red

Gold

Yellow

or Golden Brown

But all i am thinking of

is that i want to write my name over one of them

and ask the wind to take it away

Please, Remind me to write my Mobile number ! :)

Looking around

Thinking that you are too much far,
Alone most of the time

Give me an idea of wondering

Looking around

At every single person walking in the street

What`s their destination?
What`s their dream?
What`s their hope?

That woman who comes from the post everyday, she did forget today to close the cover of her post car.

That man who used to clean the street for over a month, is not here today ! May be sick

That turkish guy selling bread in HIT who always stare at me asking himself "is she turkish" , is abscent ! But replaced by another Old turkish man

A woman who left her child crying in the car, and i tried to help the child. But because i am veiled i thought it wont be good to open the car for the child to go. i looked around for his mother, she was inside home,,EATING !!

Anyway, i will keep you up to date with the latest info about the turkish guy, the post woman, and crying child who is suffering from his hungry mum !

Eat,pray and love

Eat ,pray and love

is a must see..

it is inspiring..

Emotional

Motivational

It answers questions,

and asks others..

i was given peace of mind

But felt much more isolated

as if the surrounding is not even here..

as if i am in another world where nobody can reach me..

I hope one day i could find my way

Pray everyday thanking GOD for giving me the chance

to eat,love and do my prayers

I feel that i am passing by three phases all together,

i am sure that every person who would see this movie would have the same feeling

He would feel that it talks about him in a certain way..

what i really liked the most,

"I disappear into the person I love"

"so exhausted and depleted"

"Meditation helps"

"I am the luckiest girl in the world" with that smile of her face

the scene when she was looking at all her friends, she might be asking herself, "will i meet them again ?!"

Finally dont forget to eat,pray and LOVE !

DEAD !

Sometimes,i think that i want to tell every single person i did know in my life a certain thing. It could be a thought about him/her, an advice but mostly it would be just "i will miss you"

That`s why,i am here now, i had a feeling that i might die so soon !! so i will miss you my friends and family, my beloved ones.

I hope i could tell one by one, how much i enjoyed my stay with you. even if it was for few hours or minutes.

Remember me in your prayers !!


HEy, i am not dead yet. But even if i am not, remember me in your prayers.

ليلة

ارتاح يا قلبي ليلة

بعد الغربة الطويلة

Hidden truth

she always dreamed of him, holding her tight

telling her, "i am here for you & only you"

She always dreamed of him,holding her hands

telling her, "speak your mind"

She always dreamed of herself talking to someone without being afraid of consequences,

heart, that would feel how she feels

feels her misery

her feelings

her life !


She never thought that she will be loved by him

But when it happened, it was already impossible


it is the unknown,
Unknown truth
Unknown fate
Unknown destiny

it`s only for you !

She never felt that she will love anyone, until u appeared.

you are the love of her life, and the only hidden truth !!

29.10

و لي فؤادٌ إذا طال العذابُ بهِ هامَ إشتياقاً إلى لُقِاء مُعذبهِ

أنا و سهرانة

أنا و سهرانة

- الأخوين رحباني
أنا و سهرانة وحدي بالبيت
على السكيت و متل الضجرانة
مشية قريبة طقت عالدرب
قلت يا قلب جايي حبيبي
قمت و ضويت زحت البرداية
تيشوفا الجايي و شعشعت البيت
رتبت المزهرية هييت قلوب السكر
حطيت الشال عليي و لبست العقد الأحمر
و نطرت الباب تالباب يدق
و القلب يدق و ما دق الباب
و المشية بعدت بعدت بالليل
محاها الليل بعدت و بعدت
أنا سهرانة و طفيت الضو
و طلع الضو أنا و سهرانة