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ربـيّ انـي اسالك ان تــريــح قـلبـي وفـكــري . . وان تـصـرفً عـنـي شـتـات الـعـقل والـتـفـكـيـر . . ربــي : انْ فــي قـلبــي { امــوراً } لا يـعـرفـهــا سٍــواك فـحقـقـهـّـا لـي يــا رحـيـم ، ربــي : كُـن مـعي فـًـي اصـعبْ الـظــروٌف ... .واريـنــيّ عـجـاَئــب قـدرتـــك فــيّ اصـعب الايـام

weakness

a friend told me,

Love gives us strength only at the begining then !!! it is all about weakness !

13.3.2011

it may be not frozen now as shown in the photo

but it is really frozen inside,,frozen idea,,frozen thoughts,,frozen words !

Oneday, when i was younger ( as if i am 50 now !!) i used to have alot of everything !

friends,,thougths,words,,ideas,,creativity !

But NOW !! am another person other than me,,a new one i have never seen before

i think that the surroundings really play an important role in affecting our inside, ourselves !

when it isnt not good, it really affects the one so badly ! that you would face a new person who is almost you !! but with new character !

am so depressed am afraid really to be FLUSHED ! in that !

let`s be postive,,i remember her when she was happy oneday,when she was creative when she was the real me !!

Unsolved PUZZLE IN MY MIND

the extreme >> really the extreme
and hope that you understand that it`s the extreme !!

everyday i try to convince myself !but really am fed up !!
becuase after everytime i think and ask myself for who and why !!


i talk to you thousands of times,,no backward !

So black,,so dark !!

u said it number of times,,but i couldnt believe it !! is that bcoz it`s really not existing or because i couldnt believe myself

PUZZLE IN MY MIND