"DEeeeeeeeeep"Ression !

hi !
it`s only couple of days before getting marriage !
yes my wedding ! can u believe it !

i think i have to be happy but actuallly i am not
i feel stressed,,
have alot of things to do

i am not readyyy

THE BRIDE ISNT READY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


plus
i spend most of the time alone

doing every single issue alone


i dont even have anyone beside to ask for opinions, may be i am kind of persons who just dont accept other opinions easily,,but i still need them !

the worst part of anything,,isnt knowing how to choose the thing itself !! what`s the thing that can be good looking...that fits me

I DONT KNOW !


there were so many moments when i felt that i was alone in life,,,,,,,EVERYTHING I DO,,,I DO IT ALONE ! and i thought that those momets are not existing anymore ! BUT THEY ACTUALLY DO!!

DEPRESSING HA??

I am a depressed bride
and the point is that i NEVER ASK FOR HELP...AND I WILL NEVER DO !

DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THIS,,YES, I WILL NEVER DO


hopless,,helpless,,clueless,,very weak personality...so much depressed,,and depending on others...
may be that`s why i lived alone,,because i never ask for help,,,or dont like...so i tend to live in a cave with a few needs in order not to need others

but actually and the whole shitty truth is that i am totally depending on others,,,and this kills me,,,and it proves that i am 100 percent has a weak personality..

I AM REALLY DEPRESSED
TOTALLY ANNOYED
AND FULLY CONTROLLED BY OTHERS

I HATE ME NOW
I HATE WEAK POOR SARA
I HATE ME THINKING OF OTHERS

I HATE MEEEEEEEE